Elusive Male Submissive
Another sleepless and lonely night, I am awake waiting for a glimpse of a sub online who is not mine, whom I have no rights to. It is unreasonable to want and to dream, wondering why I can’t be distracted by the ones begging for my attention and those groveling at my feet. Is it because he eludes me, or because I am intrigued and ensnared by a certain aspect that is him?
I am giving up. I am exhausted by this cat and mouse game. He should know how jaded and cynical I was before him, so his disappearing acts are not helping. I want someone that wants me just as much, someone who will give me his attention or whatever it is that pleases me. I want NOT to be denied. As much as I prefer him over others, I refuse to let this preference cause me to suffer.
If he wants to be alone then fine, be alone and content.